Hi Anita

thank you for your reply, I have been feeling very low and wasn’t up to doing much this week.

I hadn’t heard of  the Serenity Prayer.thank you for posting it, as it is very comforting and actually i agree that I need to have the courage to accept what I can’t change and change the things I can. It all sounds so simple yet seems like a huge mental task for me.

The weightloss issue of mine is something that unfortunately take a long time to conquer. When i’m feeling low and lonely or have bad news i have to really fight to refrain from seeking comfort in junk food, because i feel horrible about my actions after eating this rubbish, i also go to weightwatchers and i usually have been losing weight steadily, but on these blowout out days if i put on weight i hate myself as i committed to follow this diet to improve my health and body.

I agree that i should stop seeing the long term ex of mine. This again is hard as in the back of my mind i’m wishing him to realise how good we could be together and also for him to value me. I don’t know why i’m so focused on him to the point i dream about him alot, dream about him texting me, i even dreamt he was out for drinks with female work colleagues and i was so jealous in the dream, when i woke up i was feeling really angry and jealous as if this had really happened! this is a totally ridiculous thing for me to have done, i know that.

I guess because i’m in a panic right now i find it hard to totally take on board what you said about not just making do with any man because i cant get the one i want. My self worth must be at an all time low. I know life just isnt fair and nobody said it would be, i just feel so tired of it and would love just 1 thing that i want e.g. a family of my own to just work out for me.

Thanks so much Anita