It’s weird and hard to explain. It’s bitter sweet, push pull type of relationship that we ve had. My mother has also made tremendous effort and sacrifices but there have been too many conflicts in the extended family as well. Too much stress and sad memories overall. My father’s passing leaves a deep void in my heart. I wish there were good memories.

Thanks for your reply Anita:) I should ve been a happy healthy individual at my age. I’ll work on it now. I want to be joyous, healthy and have fun 🙂