I dont know how to describe this in english. Its something like boring person. Old boring man. She is active if we talking about communication but she dont know about my true feelings. Why i choose to marry her ( after 5 years of dating she said me: You can choose – Marry me or we will end this relationship. I was coward and instead of break i gave her ring) and what i really feel to her. I think i cant fullfill her needs – physical and emotionals. She will be upset and in tears, decimated if i reveal her truth about all of this.

I made efforts and she made efforts too. It always ends same. She shout on me in tears and i just sit in silence in my world. She always told me: I love you more than you love me. Its true.