Hi Mark,

Thank you for spending time reading my post. I did what you mentioned before – listing goals, asking myself questions who I want to become, what I should focus in life. However, it didn’t last long. Along the journey, I encountered a lot of disappointments as well. I always imagine that one day I will be a successful person filled with happiness and joy, I still think like this now actually. But sometimes, I feel that I won’t be able to reach there. I have this negative thought that whatever good things I want it to happen, eventually it will be spoiled by something bad.

It is easier said than done. Previously, I googled a lot. I read a lot saying that at the end of the day, we will live the kind of life that we desire. It may not happen now, but soon, later, at last it will happen. Also, a lot of people said eventually the right person (friends and boyfriend/girlfriend) will come into life. But I found that no matter what I do, I seem like don’t have a friend which I can share everything to. I know my problem, that I am not open enough to people. I scared betrayal, I worried what if the past friendship problem will still happen to me, that’s why I kind of distance myself from people and prefer to do things most of the time.

But recently, I met someone and we are dating now. I want to improve my life, to be a more optimistic person. With all the stress in studies, sometimes I cried a lot and wonder why my life is so miserable.