Hi Anita, the truth i meant from my ex…i really really need him to own up to what he did to me. Its very important. To clear both of our lives.

I read something about karma yesterday that completely agreed with this. If he can´t forgive me, if i can´t forgive him…then we are locked in this situation forever..we will stay like that forever and never really be released from each other. If he loves her, then surely he doesnt want to have this pain hanging over him?? surely he wants to make good with someone he hurt so badly? So that in return, he can live freely and happily with the one he loves.

And if they really are about LOVE in the purest sense..they wouldnt want me to suffer? or am i being too naive? Am i too stupid about kindness and happiness being about something more than money and a roof over your head? because i know that i can believe it, but i cant make others believe it too.

No matter though Anita, i am suffering more than ever because i know that i love him and want him to be happy. That suffering will never go, knowing that i care and that he doesnt..despite me reaching out he just has hate. That is keeping us ALL in limbo.