I’m still feeling so regretful on not giving this relationship and the new city a longer chance. I rushed it hoping that I would figure it out quickly before I messed up more of my twenties. I was so focused on what I was losing other than what I would gain from the experience. I just want a time machine to go back! And it is a horrible feeling to live with. I love this guy, I could have made it work. I worked so hard to move there and then so quickly everything happened for me to move back. Now, I feel like I’m just going to regret it all for the rest of my life.

I just wish I could go back. I don’t know if I’m in denial and worried that I’ll never find a guy again that makes me feel amazing and adventurous. I don’t want to live where I am right now even though my family and friends are here.

The guy right now is trying to get over me it feels like. He visited me a month ago and it was great! But now I feel like he needs space and we are still in this time where either of us knows what to do.

I just don’t know if I should put down more roots here or just jump and make the leap back to the new city.