I think you might like what he thinks!!! I have never posted on a site before and even though Fatima has problems you spoke to me more. I could feel your despair! today maybe not as much! think about your parents and what you want to be for your children. I had the most wonderful childhood with loving parents but still grew up with low self esteem! confidence I have greatly but am I worthy? loving myself is a major deal for me. I am happily married but almost self destruct as I can’t imagine why he loves me so much as in my head I don’t love myself, so for all my trying to help you I need help myself. I can only believe in myself, thats all I have really. I tell my sister to look in the mirror and see the gorgeous things about her , not the negatives, but find it hard to do myself. I don’t know if you have thought of the medical alternative but a few years ago I was getting divorced from my first husband and I went to my doctor as I wasn’t coping well, he put me on a very mild antidepressant and it helped me so much. I sailed through everything that would normally have really upset me. I look back now at some of the correspondence we had and think wow! was that me as I was so articulate and on the ball and beat him in court. You seem quite intelligent so obviously you have thought of this route? that your seratonin levels may be low? forgive me if I’m way off!!!