Hi Moonshine,

I’ve been reading through your posts & I can say, I am really hearing what you are saying & feel I can relate to your post a lot.  I too grew up with the same feeling of “missing” something & still to this day I can’t figure it out or discover what that is.  I feel my parents were the same – kept me secure but what I’m discovering later in life is that the emotional security was not there.  It still isn’t & if I try to express myself, I’m looked upon as dramatic, overreacting & just out to cause trouble.  It gets more frustrating & hurtful as life goes on because I’m beginning to see it for what it is, yet I’m not being heard.  It’s caused me to be insecure, distrustful, wary of relationships & sceptical of people.  I’m trying my best to look after myself & I can be outgoing in general, fearless when it comes to exploring the world on my own & generally just being by myself.  That massive void is still there however.  I hope you’re doing ok & just want you to know you’re not alone…