Thank you Anita and a lot of what you say makes total sense. I think back to conversations we had and not one story he told me about his life was spoken with positivity. After we had this run in, I left to come home and for a long time I never blamed him and felt great empathy for him as I did truly believe there was more to the reaction and it was not directly all about kw being “tired and emotional”. I took comfort in this and tried to figure out what I learned from it and in my mind wished better for him wherever life would lead him. I suppose the latest trigger (in my case) of anxiety is that almost a year on, (and only for that girl is still in touch with him) recently referred to me whilst remarking on some old pictures with us all, was when he referred to me still in a horrible light and still feels that same bitterness towards me.

To be honest, I got a bit of a shock when she first told me but as that last few days have passed, I’m once again reminding myself that it goes deeper than me and that I was just the target at the time (possibly like many others that encountered him in a similar situation). At the end of the day, I’m quite content with my life and remind myself to count my blessings and appreciate all and everyone I have therefore that helps me reflect on things more clearly….along with all your help too. Thanks to you both!