Diarmaid,

That was so beautiful, thank you for sharing that with me. I’m not used to seeing negative emotions as something that is or can be “positive.”Sometimes I come out of meditation and my underlying mood is worse and I cry, and I don’t mean a few tears, it is like the my dog just died sobbing type of crying. I do feel release afterwards but the moods linger sometimes too. Sometimes I’ll go to sleep afterwards because I feel emotionally drained or I’ll just feel numb or spaced out. I just don’t know if it is progress. It could just be that I can’t see how this can be progress either, coming from the prospective of someone who has been depressed for a lot of their life. Very strange happenings.

I went to a meditation center this past weekend, and I bought some books. The more I read and learn about meditation and spiritual practice the more I feel kind of overwhelmed and I don’t want to say “ashamed” but I suppose I see a lot of my faults and it sucks! Some of the concepts of Buddhism are very hard to swallow.

Again, thank you for taking the time to reply. I appreciate your kindness, it has helped me.