Dear Brayden:

The behavior you experienced from others, ditching, or excluding you during play, hurt your feelings very much and you believed, as a result of being excluded, that you are unwanted. Now that you have friends that want you included, you still believe the same, that you are unwanted.

Beliefs formed in early childhood are very strong. It is difficult to change such beliefs when they no longer fit reality. So you are stuck (the verb in the title of your thread) with this old belief in a new reality. Changing core beliefs such as this may take quality psychotherapy, a safe place where you express the hurt and fear that hold the old belief in place and proceed from there.

anita