A world where I do not have anyones expectations on me.

A world where we can both be “losers” but are still happy.

A world where our love can be just the reason and the solution to life.

A world where we can make decisions without thinking about what our parents or family have to say about it.

A world where we can be ourselves.

I imagine this every single day, this beautiful that fantasy that probably will only stay as a fantasy.

I cannot help but to think about how unfair this is.

Two people that loves each other but cannot be with each other?

Why? Why? Why?

I was a very religious Catholic before the break up. I know that this website is a Buddhist website, but I know that everyone here are so nice and does not care about my religion.

I am losing my Catholic faith very slowly but surely.

I tried reaching out for help to several people regarding my faith, but I feel like it is not really working.

I understand that God loves me very much, and He wants the best for me but it is so hard to see His plan beyond this sad relationship that had to end due to all those things.

That is why I am mad at God, but at the same time – my heart still cried out to him to help me.

To help me stays alive, help me see things beyond him, or maybe let us be with each other somehow if He cannot do that.

My life right now has no direction. No hope. No light.

I am just holding on.

I have to.

-Mina