Dear ella:

It is very difficult to live believing that you are a bad person. When you feel jealous- you feel you are a bad person for feeling jealous. When you feel angry- you feel that you are a bad person for feeling angry. When something goes wrong- you think it was your fault. Is it so, for you?

This core belief: I-am-a-bad-person is not a feature of OCD: there are people without OCD have this core belief. For your mental well-being, this core belief needs to be replaced by a core belief that is true to reality. Not an easy thing to do, but possible, over time, with work and with help.

anita