Hi Anita! thanks for replying!

I do not automatically trust people anymore, I have done so on the past.

With my mum I did expect her to snap, because old habits die hard, but I had not expected her to say something this extreme (I do not think she has ever asked me to leave the house before).

The coworker I had chosen as a friend because she was interested in self growth and I had seen her change from someone who could be mocking and sarcastic into someone who was considerate of other peoples feelings.

The friend who blocked me I chose because he had made an effort to spend time with me  when I didn’t really expect that from people.

There are two other people I currently trust: one as a friend who I can spend time with who is kind which is why I decided to spend time with her, but I do not enter deeper conversations with her because I know our religious views and moral values differ, and the second is my therapist.

Since I was quite selective and from around me these people appeared the most considerate as well as interested in me I chose them. However, if they let me down then I am thinking everyone will.

With gratitude,

m