Hi Claire,
The day that you become a mother, that is the day that your priorities should have changed. Above all, your kids need to come first. Choose them. Don’t choose a man(s) over them. Once you are done raising your kids – as it does get easier when they are older, then focus on you again.
I would suggest getting a place on your own that is near transportation and moving away from both man. I think you need to focus on you and your children. Don’t damage your children by choosing a man over them or by being with their father and not being happy! Show them that you are a strong and independent woman that does not need a man to feel safe. Perhaps all these has to do with your childhood and how you were brought up as we are all a product of our own environment but since you are aware of it, you need to choose a different life style for you and your kids. You will be thankful that you did it- trust me!
Please leave both man and choose your kids who desperately (more than you think) need their mother.
Wish you all the best!
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