Dear Veronica:

The experience of childhood that you described is very scary for a child. I can’t imagine any that is scarier. It doesn’t matter how much time passes, it scared that little girl and she is still part of you, that little girl. To access her, best done in quality psychotherapy, in the safe context of therapy.

I understand your fear of being judged and criticized. On the other hand, a long time ago, I gave my email address to a few members on the site. The communication that followed was not helpful to me or to them. I have learned my lesson then and I do not do again what did not work well in the past.

I assure you that I will not judge or criticize you here. I will make sure of it. And so, what you can do, if you so choose, is only read my replies to you, my posts. Maybe another member replies and if you choose, when you do, you can read the first sentence or so and figure out if you want to read further. Or not at all.

I hope you post again, maybe share in small portions. It is your choice.

anita