anita and sis,

a couple months ago, sister, I told you about a thought I had. I stated – “do you ever thing maybe mom was just always like this? like maybe she’s just a bad person ..since ALWAYS. so maybe it isnt right for us to be sad that all these bad things MADE her this way. maybe she is just a cruel person”

and this is why i stick to dad. the fact that he abused our mother – well i have no idea how to even think of that..because i guess that makes him evil too? inherently? or was it just normal culturally to do that..so its ok? i have no idea how to even process that…although it seems so obviously black and white..RIGHT VS WRONG. it is not.

BUT, our father was not cruel to us the way mother was. not emotionally abusive growing up. now, yes. but he was never evil the way she was. he had anger issues yes. but it was not directed towards us on purpose like hers was.

• This reply was modified 6 years, 11 months ago by cali sister.