Wow gypsygirl!  You really are doing all the right things to take care of yourself.  Quite impressive.

So right now you are focusing on your past relationship and all that you enjoyed about it rather than being fully in the present with your new relationship and situation?

Do you write about your current situation and boyfriend in your gratitude journal?

I believe mindfulness does help in living our lives in general.  Being mindful that you are making unhelpful comparisons and then shifting into something more helpful such as focusing on the positive and releasing the comparison is one suggestion.

Another suggestion is writing down and prioritizing the “must haves” versus “nice to haves” in partner.  It sounds like you are ambivalent about your boyfriend so having this list and stacking him against it might help you determine if he is the right guy for you.

You mention about grieving for your past life.  You can do that and  there is no need to really share it with your boyfriend especially since it bothers him so much.  That is your past to let go, not his.

You can fondly recall the good aspects of your past life without going back to it.  I assume that you are journaling/visioning on what you want for your future life so you can manifest those great things you had experienced from your last relationship.

Again, keep focusing on the Present Moment rather than the Past, what you have rather than what was.  Know that envisioning your Future will help you stay out of the Past.

Does that help?

Mark