Thanks for talking to me Anita, I know I should cancel this and send him those things. Perhaps this hope is bad for me and I need to lose all hope, maybe then I will be ready to let go. So maybe I need this meeting to see for myself that we’re strange people to each other now. Truth is I don’t plan in my head what I will say or what will happen, except for the overthinking first day after he hold me this. Which is good. I feel sad and hopeless, maybe it’s a good thing.