I’m sorry you are going through this. Break-ups are never easy (and if I’m being honest, it looks like that is what this is). You don’t mention your age but I imagine you are in your 20s? I feel like men have the need to explore during this decade, not wanting to be tied down. When something has longevity (and then bigger commitments rear their head), people are often forced to contemplate whether this is what they really want – or if they want to see what else is out there in the world. What other connections can be made. My gut is telling me that is what happened here. The relationship ran its course and he finally made the decision to end it.

Don’t take this personally. It happens to everyone. You even wrote that part of you “doesn’t want him back”, which is a good sign as subconsciously you might also be realizing that this isn’t what you wanted or needed long-term either.

One personal anecdote I will add is that I found him texting you at work to initiate the break-up to be very immature. It also shows lack of respect for you and what you both shared for two years. This happened to me once. I was dating someone for a year and randomly – no previous discussion whatsoever like you had – he texted me at work to tell me that it wasn’t going anywhere and he just wanted to be friends. I was gutted. But then I became insulted. I’m now more offended that he lacked the balls to do it in person face-to-face.

Think about that.

Love is important in life. Respect is also important. There is someone out there that can give you all these things and you will meet them someday. It will take time to get over this, but don’t stop believing that.