I believe in spiritual signs such as 11:11 but also know that it is not the be all, end all of the final destination.  Clarence was/is probably a stepping stone for you for further realization and growth.  He is not your final stop/relationship.  I cannot pretend to know why he showed up in your life but from the sounds of him, he is not a healthy person to be in your life anymore.

My guess is that you got more validation that you are worthy and that there are others who you can relate to who are spiritually struggling.  Perhaps right now you don’t need guidance from the Universe but just time to heal.  That maybe all the guidance you need for now.

I am sorry that you are struggling so and depressed.  We are here for you in spirit and on this website Cat.  It’s a day-by-day thing to live.  I am sure there will be others here on this site who will give you more concrete support in helping with your depression and sense of worthiness.  Right now Cat, I am sending you a hug and love.

Mark