Dear Anita,

Thank you very much, your kind words mean a lot and I hope so too. I hope I can start building and creating a life and lifestyle that I envy of so many others. I will let you know my progress with Bristol 🙂 I have just put down my holding fee!

I tried psychotherapy in the past few months. I didn’t find it as helpful as I could, as I was unable to really explain what happened in my childhood due to memory, and when I did, my therapist only told me things that I already knew really. I think if I was going to have therapy again I’d have CBT.

“Seeing good things that are not real” – could I ask you to expand/ explain that a little more please? Or give me an example of one such situation? Reality will always be hard to decipher – because there isn’t one sense of reality. The way that I perceive a table, may be completely different to how you perceive a table….

In terms of reality, I know that because my enthusiasm was stamped out as a child, throughout my teenage years and young adult life, it meant I wanted to seize as much enthusiasm as possible, which made me trust the wrong people and have many manic episodes etc etc. (Chicago).  Now I’m more aware of this, I’m getting a better understanding that people aren’t these god-like beings that I see in them, and instead, are just (mostly) calm people with a range of emotions and interests. I am looking to know myself better than I know anyone else, as before I would know people so well and myself not enough.

Cat