Dear Anita,

Thank you 🙂 I am still struggling with sleep – getting to sleep around 3am/4am and waking up at 12pm/1pm – so really hoping that I can sort this out and get in to a good routine before March rolls around.

It’s true, even though I know that I am on the right path, that I am currently safe and have nothing to worry about, in my head I still perceive a lack of will to live almost, and therefore does make it difficult to get out of bed, unfortunately. I guess it’s a lack of belief in myself/ my life.

Yes! That’s exactly it. So, for me – take today for instance, I am seeing the potential of today in 2 different realities….. The first one being: this is the same as every other day, I’ve woken up late, feel a bit useless, might as well just stay in bed and do work from home and hope that tomorrow I get up earlier and go in to town… The second view of how I’m seeing today is this: Okay, well, it’s only 1.20 and coffee shops don’t close until 5/6 so there’s still time. Posting on Tiny Buddha first thing is helping you to remember the positive changes and direction that your life is heading in, so why not post on here, then shower, wear what you want to wear and head in to town?? (I’m smiling as I’m typing this 🙂 ).

So, I guess for me – in terms of seeing my life, and my self, and everything around me (literally). I either see it with no worth and potential, or I see with so much worth and potential and respect. I guess this depends on my actions – and my influences… For me, it seems like Tiny Buddha is a massive help for me, that helps me to see the second one. Because when I come back on these forums, I am reminded that I am a human, with the same wants, desires and needs as other humans, and I deserve the same goodness in life that other people on here deserve too.

If I didn’t come on here, and kept to myself today, I think my brain would sink lower and lower back in to the past, and that feeling of isolation from everyone else and reiterate the idea that I am the outsider looking in, who does not deserve a confident, happy life like so many other people have.

– I will let you know which action I took today 🙂 🙂

Sending love from England,

Cat