bob,

I am sorry for your pain but I would caution you not to blame God.  You have already mentioned the significant part you played in the demise of the relationship, ex. our communication was hurting due to me, I failed to show her just how much I loved her.  Now I am stuck asking God why he allowed me to build up SO much love for this women, then shatter it all in front of me.

If you want to bring God into this then you can look at it as God’s wake up call to you to make changes in your life.

It sounds like there is nothing you can DO since you have already done a lot to try to win her back.  What you can do is work on yourself.  Exam what things you can change about yourself so that the next relationship will work better.

Mark