Dear Anita

You’re probably right, as much as it shocked me what you just wrote. I remember when we started seeing each other I was acting different and he tried so much to get me, I didn’t want to sleep with him for couple of months, he used to come to my house in the middle of the night, was sad when I ignored his texts, or didn’t have time for him.He used to bring me flowers and buy candles for the night because I joked I wanted this. That was also the last time he ever mentioned us being together in a serious relationship or things like holding my hand etc. He tried really hard to get me (I was in love with someone else at that time so I ignored him for a long time). The time I agreed to sleep with him changed all this, and it never came back the way it was before.

So I believe it’s true, this is what he really needs. I think about it very often, I was happy then, it wasn’t sick relationship like it is now. But is it possible to come back to this? I’m not saying to us being together like it was before, but come back to when I felt worthy and not inferior around him.

You’ve done it, so did you finally stop wanting this? I’m not asking if you realized it’s bad, because its not that difficult to know and to see, but do you still feel this need for someone to make you feel less worthy?