Dear Anita,

How are you? Life for me seems to be taking off at the moment – I am still off work but have found myself having a lot of music promotion opportunities open up, and also a lot of great new relationships being built. Lots of positive things.

Something that comes to my mind on a daily basis is something that you said before, that I do experience happiness, but then my core belief discredits that and takes it away. At the moment this is something that I am beginning to recognise more and more and attempting to overcome.

I agree with what you said about a childs innocence being betrayed and lost and I agree it is a tragedy… I have recently encountered a new friendship that is so honest, and so pure, and so respectful. That every conversation we have is mindful and respectful and understanding. In a way, it is one of the most emotionally open, honest and close relationships I’ve had, and this has allowed me to regain that emotional sacredness I once had as a child. I now realise that I hold the power of creating beautiful relationships with people, from being honest, being considerate and being confident in showing love to others.

It’s a long, long, long journey of continuous self-analysis, questioning, self-improvement etc. I can only hope that as many souls who experience this…..emotional sabotage from an early age have the opportunity to find an even greater emotional haven in their later life. I believe these souls are owed it.

A lot of…..other people’s emotions were put on to me at an early age (as you’ve seen from what my father said before my 7th birthday). So I guess that I grew up without the opportunity to explore my own emotions/ interests, but with a “duty” to be responsible for other people’s. I guess that’s just how I saw life as being, which I guess is why I continue to struggle to come to terms with the fact that that way of living is not correct. Is correct the right word here?

Cat