The moments when we feel down can also remind us of how much we want to improve ourselves. If you hadn’t had these days of “waste” would you know how much you want to improve your life? It sounds like to me that you are a very resilient. I will echo calling someone/reaching out for professional support is a great idea. The ability to ask for help is also not easy, but it is a sign of strength and resilience.

Maybe asking your self – what keeps me going? will provide some exciting answers 🙂