Thank you Anita.

That helped to see it written like that. It also helped me to understand other problems. I have been feeling low about my appearance and that may also cause a spike in criticsining and questioning his.

I agree about the family, however, would feel sad to never speak to my brother so think I can rethink about HOW to speak with him. Maybe it is better that I tell him that topics as heavy as Saturday are best dealth with with a professional or other friend rather than myself as it is very difficult to understand and help. And listening is tough too.

Thank you for the advice.