Justin,

1. Your thoughts are super negative

2. You feel pretty alone

3. You are taking care of yourself by eating right, working out, sleeping and meditating

You said that everything you enjoy supports your ego, that you just want to relax and stay comfortable in your current life.

You also said you want to do something more, that you are sick of “this,” etc.

I am confused.  If you have super negative thoughts and feeling alone then how are you comfortable in your current life?

What do you enjoy?

What are you sick of?  What makes you believe that you are not in the right place?

Mark