Hi Anita,

Thank you for your response.

I realise where I may have over exaggerated and where not.

I read back over my messages. The first thing I sent to my partner said “they were intending to have a threesome and as I reached for my phone I made contact” this was at 8:35 am. I went to bed very drunk at 4am. So I hadn’t slept and clearly didn’t think of that message. Later in the day I sent further messages which were more honest etc and clarified everything.

I hust spoke to my friend, the girl. I read her that message. She kindly turned to me and said “I’m not sure what you seem to think has happened. Nobody tried to have a threesome. We explained last night, that in Work we do a thing called cuddle circles to relieve stress. These circles sometimes involve more than 10 people each spooning each other one way for 5 mins, then we all turn to the other way for 5”. I stared blankly. I know that things felt uncomfortable. I know the girls made out which my friend says “was her fault for kissing her best friend.” For example now they are watching a movie together and are cuddling. They are childhood friends so maybe it’s more common for them.

Also, I was sure that something was going on. But when I asked about the Male friend se said “Derek don’t you remember how nervous he was and moved away”.

anyway, my point is is I still feel like I almost crossed a line and risked temptation and walked away. But I am afraid too that I completely over exaggerated a situation. That doesn’t mean that it was entirely innocent as I clearly felt nervous etc. But now I just feel crap because I could’ve just asked this morning, and then could’ve explained a lot better and a lot less exaggerated and hysterical. Now I feel like I blew a situation up, drunkenly lost self control, catastrophised and also probably distressed my partner.

Because “they were intending to have a threesome”

or “they were being drunk and did this bizarre cuddle circle thing that got even more bizarre and could’ve escalated but didn’t”

i dunno I feel like I let anxiety and fear take over. I’m sorrt that you know the feeling. It’s sad. It’s a horrible feeling.