Anita,

i have been crying once a month since summertime. Usually about his inability to open up more when we have conversation rather than just say “I’m sorry and I’m here for you”

its been tough since this January, me finishing up my degree and his demanding job schedule.

this past Sunday night I was upset because I asked to FaceTime, he said yes after his show was over, then he responded with “babe I love you so much I can’t wait for us to be together again I’m falling asleep” and I FREAKED

I take it as if he thinks he needs to gas my head up with text messages, when all I need is a quick phone call or FaceTime! I just want to hear it, I want to engage in meaningful convos even when we are away. We barely spoke until last night he apologized for being so busy and he feels bad about it and I said I’m ok with you being busy, we just need to talk about things to find a balance. And he responded with..uh ok sorry.

I just don’t understand why it’s so hard for him to get. I’m second guessing everything, I put myself on medication because I think I’m the problem but I’m just not sure.