Thank you. It’s just so ridiculous how I’m saying “we cannot move from this place of uncertainty without a proper conversation” we both had faults, he blames it all on me.

I don’t know, he was never emotionally available.

isanted more, but I was unhappy in April due to his behaviors. But I have tried in May and in June to be positive, once he sent a rude song saying “reminds me of you” and I responded back “I have said I’m sorry so many times and would do anything to help you heal” he then asked if we could get lunch, then blew me off how ever many times.

If I’m kind, nothing gets resolved and he thinks I’m not hurt. Which feels like I’m then cheating myself during the break up. When I broke

up with him, it was because I couldn’t breathe around him, I was just so upset and looking at everything that wasn’t ok. I understand his pain, but I leave him be Because I want him to be bappy, he’s expressed how horrible I was and howmisersble I made him, but he hasn’t once seen his flaws.

I think I have meaningful conversations with my friends. My family tends to just talk badly about people rather than talking kindly about others, which is hard for me to deal with.

My boyfriend confided in telling me that I am always negative, and it is hard for him to stay positive and talk to me when I’m rude/negative/giving an attitude towards him, he was very emotional about this an actually cried. I understand that I am that way, it is something I’ve always struggled with and I realize that the past 4 months I have probably been more negative since we are more apart and I am under high stress trying to finish my degree while balancing out all other life stressors. I understand now that for him he is trying to be positive about our situation while I am just nagging/focusing in on negatives/not appreciating the positive. Am I doing this because I am just a negative person or is it because I really am unhappy with him? I know that is a hard thing for you to answer but I am having a hard time differentiating…?

I’m not so sure to be honest. He may have but I was a different person 6 months-year-year 1/2 ago…for the better I might add. More afraid to open up and be vulnerable about real issues.

I try to get him to open up, I try to start meaningful conversations, it doesn’t really work.

I’m just sad because I don’t want to end things…but this is killing me.