Dear Cali Chica:

In my healing, I am trying these very days, every day, to feel  okay with the excitation involved with eating. It is an ongoing practice, to notice the excitation, to not rush, to slow down, to not distract, to stay… to enjoy eating, to not be anxious while eating… or about thinking about eating before a meal.

My excitation in my experience with my mother, as a child, was indeed immense, and it was, like you wrote, “to the point of burnout and frying out.”

anita