Dear Cat:

You had a breakdown and damage was done. You can’t undo it. All you can do at this point is stop more damage from taking place.

Things feel very bad for you, maybe the worst. But things are not the worst. You are not in prison. You are not locked in a mental hospital. You are still a free woman. You are alive and things will get better.

If you stop more damage from taking place.

I think it is time to ask for and take psychiatric medications for the mania you suffer from (“I’ve been too manic”). Psychiatric drugs do have a place and this is the time, reads to me, to see a psychiatrist, as soon as possible.

Yes, I see nothing else for right now other than seeing a psychiatrist ASAP.

It is not a good idea that you contact Noel at all, that you go out at night, that you drink alcohol, none of these things until you are on medications and are stable.

Write again anytime, please.

anita