Thanks for all the advices. I know I should not hold on to the anger. It is a buddha’s teaching not to hold anger or grudges as it will eat away a person from inside. However, I am sure a lot of people know that saying it is easier than done. I have to get her out of my mind. Starting to pack up things that she gave me. Some gifts that I bought her which I didn’t have the chance to give her. I do think I didn’t get a proper closure to this relationship. It’s really frustrating. At the same time, I know I have to move on.

I’ll take things one step at a time. Luckily, I have colleagues around to talk about useless stuffs to get my mind off her. However, do anyone of you think it is good idea to talk to someone about this other than my therapist? I have stopped going to the therapist as I do not feel it is helping. I did spoke about this affair to a female friend but all she does is give me standard advice that is not helpful.

Everyday, I am telling myself that life must go on. I see someone on the street and tell myself life goes on for him/her, it should go on for me too.