Dear abubin:

Even though I am not communicating with your children, never met them, never will, I still think of their well-being and wish they didn’t suffer from your struggles, past and present. I wish they didn’t pay the price for your misery in your marriage and from your affair. I wish so, but children do pay the price, unfortunately. Please protect them best you can from your suffering and attend to them kindly.

Do post anytime you would like to express yourself. I believe I understand being-stuck-in-misery, which is how I see your situation. I sure hope you find hope, a way to get somewhat un-stuck.

anita