Hi, thank you for replying.

I would feel like a failure in a sense that I didn’t do what I wanted to achieve, I’ve always strongly wanted kids, to be a mother.

Unfortunately, it’d be almost impossible to meet someone who doesn’t look at porn to some degree these days. It’s sadly extremely normal. He doesn’t look at anything that upsets though.

It is more carefree, but it costs a lot in fuel and has no air conditioning and will one day die on me. I’d much rather a new car, that’s safer, comfortable and cheaper to run.

I do feel a lot of stress in achieving these things and I’m not sure what to do about it, stress doesn’t workout for me, I shut down, become irritable and unfocused – decision making becomes too hard and my job relies on me making choices for other people. I’m going through new things and it’s stressful.