Well isn’t that what love is?  a drug?

Before everything went south, We had a great relationship.  It seriously was just a bad combination of shitty events that all happened at the same time, then i was too blinded by my own needs to see what was really happening and what i needed to do for her.  Which was just be there when she needed me to and just to listen to her and let her deal.  Seriously we had 10 months of bliss, and 2 really bad months that just took it’s toll and destroyed us.

It just sucks, i don’t think i’ll ever be “over” her.  I loved her that much.  I still do.  I don’t know what it is about her, but there was some kind of connection that we had from day one.  I never believed in “soul mates” until i met her.  I just can’t explain it.

I guess i’m going to just have to take the chance and see if she does want to try with me again.  No matter what the odds or how afraid either of us are about getting hurt.