People make mistakes John and that is how we change for the better, we become more experienced with life. I am sure it is going to be a difficult journey ahead, being away but slowly with time it will get better. This forum is great, I got the help I needed to move on here.

And the feeling of guilt, she had her demons too and I am sure she hasn’t taken care of them as well. It is easier to neglect than solve problems. If she had, then if nothing else, she would have talked to you about everything in an elaborate manner. Don’t blame yourself. Remember, It requires two hands to sound a clap. In the same way, unless both of you had issues, the relationship would not have fallen down.

All the best and if you need any more help, the thread is still open.