Chris,

You may want to look into Buddhism.  Buddhism consists of the Buddha, the Dharma and the Sangha. Buddha being a teacher. The Dharma being the philosophy. The Sangha being the community.

If you feel lost then I suggest you move toward something like Buddhism (though it does not have to be that particular philosophy) in order to bring some structure in your life. Having a Sangha, a set of philosophical principles and a guide(s) would probably help you since you seem to be floundering.

It’s a start.

Mark