Thank you Anita for your comment, it is difficult because for every thing I want to belive and I think is right and makes sense in this new teaching I am learning of.. there seems to be 10 reasons why my faith growing up belives it to be false and I cant not notice it. Its going to take some serious time and patience I think I don’t want to force it. But to learn something one must also unlearn too….maybe at least that what they always told me lol see my problem here?