Hey Anita,

Lately I’ve been around my family a lot more. We weren’t close growing up but when I didn’t have any friends to support me I realized I had a chance to reconnect with them and I have been. We don’t have really deep conversations but it is a start and makes me feel better when i feel like other people aren’t supporting me. Therapy definitely helps, so glad I went last night.

I feel like I never learned how to truly connect with anyone til lately. I didn’t learn that it was ok to have feelings or how to talk about them so I never did. I didn’t open up and I didn’t know it was ok to not be happy all the time. I thought I was supposed to be happy and outgoing and the life of the party even though I felt terrible. So I completely withdrew from people for months. I’m beginning to learn that I will still have value if I’m not always my usual self and it’s totally ok to not feel up to everything all the time. I had cut off a lot of people because I didn’t want them to see me in a bad state, I thought they wouldn’t like me.