Dear Chil:

Reads like you suffer and have suffered for a long time. I think you are looking for the real things in life, honesty, true friendship and true love with a man. Unfortunately your family members that you mentioned are not honest, full of “hatred and vengeance” but showing a false face to the outside. Your friend gets closer to you when she needs your help and then withdraws, and your husband, you shared in a previous thread is also using you, in that he needs you to work and bring in the money and be of service to him  otherwise, but does not appreciate you otherwise.

Basically you are living a lonely life as far as the adults in your life: family of origin, husband, others.

I wish you had one true, close friend who  will be honest with you and consistently supportive, on your side.

Please do post here anytime and I for one, will respond to you when I am at the computer.

anita