Felix – where to start… your situation isn’t pathetic! so stop with that line. Debt – many people are in debt and owe money – you know how much and 4-5yrs isn’t long! trust me!  Family – so various options – adopt, foster, or natural or other ways, when? that’s not for now! You need to feel at peace with yourself before you invite a child into your family circle and that maybe just you and a son or daughter!  Ideally when you do find peace with a woman – then you can speak about family at the right time.  Losing weight – great start, NOW inner peace – my suggestion start doing some youtube relaxation, meditation, some are on there for 10mins – and yes you can find 10mins to do one as often as you need, plus great 8-12hr long ones to aid sleep, anxiety etc etc.

For NOW be in the here and now! stop focusing on ALL the negative emotions they breed negativity – try replacing them with positive affirmations again youtube great vids on pos affirmations.

Soo you asked, I replied you can take it or leave it, hugs, best wishes, one step one day at a time x blessings x