Classy,

Good for you for all that care.  I believe we all want immediate relief, healing, happiness.  Unfortunately what takes years in the making (usually unconsciously), will take long to undo.  This day and age with internet speed, instant gratification, Amazon next day delivery and dating swipe right, we are conditioned to have it all and have it now.

I believe in anger (rage).  I was brought up without having that expressed in my family-of-origin.  It is as valid an emotion as joy.  I am still learning to embrace that, to feel that without skipping over it.  This is all part of who we are.  Emotions are human.  How we choose to express our emotions, especially rage and anger is another thing.  I encourage you to fully express it without judgment or holding back (within reason).  I think it is good for you to do so.  Rage is you (for now).  It’s there for a reason.  Honor that.  Be with it.  If it is too scary to physically express it (though I would encourage you to do so,  ex. bang on a pillow or scream or something) then sit with it in meditation.

Mark