risha,

I am sorry for your pain.  I advise you not to make any changes in your life while you are in such emotional turmoil.

In my (American) culture, people in their 30s and beyond make their own love partner decisions.  We do not get our parents to call and threaten the other family.  Emotional independence is valued especially when it is between adult child and parent.

It is academic now to go over your past relationship.  And you are too hurting to look to the future as of yet.  It is time for healing and recovery.

I would recommend journalling about your pain and how your relationship affected you.  This not only will help the healing process but also the self-reflective one as well.  It is good to gain a perspective on what your role played into this outcome.  Writing reflectively helps to gain that perspective

Mediate on your loneliness and grief.  It has been proven if you sit with your emotions, it is easier to let go.

Mark