Hello.

Your spelling was good and I understood all your post, so don’t worry.

The problem is not that you have feelings and emotions. It’s a part of our human nature, we are not robots, everyone has feelings and emotions. People told you you are dumb and bullied you and you accepted it and acted like a victim, like you deserve it, and it’s your fault that you get hurt by that. It’s not your fault, it’s normal to feel hurt in those situations. Your fault is that you didn’t speak up for yourself and you let them do and say whatever they wanted and you believed them.

You say that people only care about themselves because your quality of life is imposed by how people treat you. So if they would treat you nice and seem that they care for you this will help you because right now you think you don’t have the ability to speak up for yourself and show people that you don’t accept to be treated badly. You don’t need strangers to care for you just so you can live happily. It’s not healthy. Get out from this victim mentality, speak up for yourself, teach people how you want to be treated and what you won’t accept and then you’ll feel better.

From what you wrote you don’t really seem dumb, as you say.

Try and get some specialized help, so you can get a job and maybe make a better life for yourself.