Hi Again,

Yes he wouldn’t have said Good bye to me coz he was full of guilt. Though he pretended it was a proposal from home he never thought I would find out that this is a girl whom he got to know by himself and has been associating with her while I was with him. He introduced her to his parents checked their Horoscopes it matched. once everything is finalized that’s where he decided to tell me and told me its a proposal from home. I have no choice to do it. I still love you but I’m doing this to my parents. How could he back stab me after 7 years.

if it was genuinely a proposal from his home I would have let go and I woont be suffering so much. or else he could have told me about this girl earlier. He just blind fooled me. He knows my age he knows my plight he knows how difficult it is for me to move on with someone else but still he didn’t care.

Also Anita its so difficult for me to delete all his memories..messages, emails etc. I feel so sad to do it. This is a person whom I loved so much and I’m finding difficult to say Goodbye to all of his memories.

I cant help myself crying everyday the times that I cry is countless I’m unable to work I keep tearing every single moment and I run to the wash room and burst out all my tears. How long can I do this to myself. Everytime I try to make up my mind its so difficult.

Also what I’ve learnt from life is to give priority to myself coz I always sacrificed loads of things to the people I care. My siblings  are very supportive in my situation and keeps in touch with me. However I feel no matter what…they have their own priorities in life before me. So the day I lose my mother I know I will be lonely in this world.. She’s there for me now and she’s my strength.

I have really become close to my GOD coz right now hes the only person I could talk to. if I was a Buddhist or Christian I feel I would have been a nun and I don’t find anything interesting in this world. but unfortunately I cannot do that in my religion.

I don’t know how my future would hold. I’m quite stable but I went through lot of obstacles in life to gain my stability even in the past.

its sad to hear about your story ‘I wasted not only my thirties but much of my twenties before that and my forties’ I really don’t know what u had to go through in life and if you wish you can share it with me.