Thank you Gigi. That means a lot to me. Especially since you have a sense of understanding since your situation is slightly similar. He went on a date yesterday with his co worker he had spoken to me about. I was hurt because besides his ex being in the picture, I felt like I was the only one getting his attention. It’s clear he is not ready to settle and he told me that this morning. He is enjoying his freedom and I want to enjoy that with him but I am not capable of doing so since my emotions are much more deeper than his. I still feel as though we are meant to be. Maybe I am blindly and crazy in love but this odd small feeling won’t go away making me feel such a way. I’ve never felt like this towards anyone and what I mean by that is feeling like this still isn’t over. Like there’s so much more that is to come from this and that he is the one for me. I’ve always had hope with others but this doesn’t feel like hope. It feels more like intuition but I need to let this situation go regardless and let the Universe do it’s job.

Yesterday while he was on his date, I went to watch a movie with my downstairs neighbor who likes me. I couldn’t get my best friend off my mind, wondering how his date was going. I feel as though I will never be able to move on with him in my life. Do I lose my best friend or lose myself? We are extremely connected and attached to one another despite our emotions for each other. I have never been so honest, so comfortable, so myself with someone like this ever and have it reciprocated in return. He brings out the best in me and no one has ever done that to me before. I’ve never trusted someone with my life as I do with him. I feel completely stuck right now.

And I feel as though there’s this little voice within my heart reassuring me of my worth and predicting that if I move on, he will regret it and come back and it won’t go away. I hope I’m not going delusional and this feeling is meant to stay with me for a reason. Do I sound crazy?

Julie