Hi Stephanie,

I stick around because when I’m with him, my intuition speaks to me. I feel like we just click. He just texted me about his situation with his ex and how she recently, oddly, has been texting him a lot. And I feel as though she is only texting him now because she’s scared of losing him. He said how she called him one day while he was with me and he forgot to text her back which was unusual for him. But how she reacted saying to him, “he must like someone else” because she felt like he was “whatever” with her on the phone. I feel like his emotions are very unpredictable and erratic but I’ve noticed that when I’m in love with someone I have a very high tolerance for them. I settle for less because I’m scared to lose him towards her and I want to stick around to prove to him what my love is capable of.

Last night, I came to terms that I need to accept the present and you’re right. If I move on and he let’s go, he was never mine in the first place. I’m just scared of what the future holds because I feel like my heart is telling me he’s the one and I keep holding on to that voice in my head. Sometimes I wonder if maybe I’ve gone crazy.

Thank you Gigi. That means a lot to me. Especially since you have a sense of understanding since your situation is slightly similar. He went on a date yesterday with his co worker he had spoken to me about. I was hurt because besides his ex being in the picture, I felt like I was the only one getting his attention. It’s clear he is not ready to settle and he told me that this morning. He is enjoying his freedom and I want to enjoy that with him but I am not capable of doing so since my emotions are much more deeper than his. I still feel as though we are meant to be. Maybe I am blindly and crazy in love but this odd small feeling won’t go away making me feel such a way. I’ve never felt like this towards anyone and what I mean by that is feeling like this still isn’t over. Like there’s so much more that is to come from this and that he is the one for me. I’ve always had hope with others but this doesn’t feel like hope. It feels more like intuition but I need to let this situation go regardless and let the Universe do it’s job.

Yesterday while he was on his date, I went to watch a movie with my downstairs neighbor who likes me. I couldn’t get my best friend off my mind, wondering how his date was going. I feel as though I will never be able to move on with him in my life. Do I lose my best friend or lose myself? We are extremely connected and attached to one another despite our emotions for each other. I have never been so honest, so comfortable, so myself with someone like this ever and have it reciprocated in return. He brings out the best in me and no one has ever done that to me before. I’ve never trusted someone with my life as I do with him. I feel completely stuck right now.

And I feel as though there’s this little voice within my heart reassuring me of my worth and predicting that if I move on, he will regret it and come back and it won’t go away. I hope I’m not going delusional and this feeling is meant to stay with me for a reason. Do I sound crazy?

Julie